|Right now this is my favorite peice...this perfectly sums up everything that made me who I am...but i think most people can relate to something here|
I did it!!! Today I took my driving test and I got my full license....now yes I know this is suppose to be done when you are 16 but I am deathly afraid of driving...and even back then I took the class...and went to this class that they offered in the parking lot but i never did anymore than that because something happened to the teacher and the one i had schedules had to be moved back and in that time i let fear suffocate me and I stopped driving all together...but then this summer i decided to pick it up again...well technically in february but then there was always something that stopped me from continuing....the last like month all I have done is drive and i took the test today...and well the lady was not the friendliest...and she got snippy cause she thought my car was new which it wasn't...actually its like 8 years old....but it has been well taken care of...then I had to slam my breaks because of this stupid truck and she made a noise and i was so nervous....and then she was like lane change left and when i went to look i turned my wheel a little right and well got close to the curb and the woman was like oh shit....and i corrected and after that i thought i had failed and for some reason felt calmer and did the rest of the test really well....and when we got back she asked me to follow her back into the building and i was so nervous that i almost forgot to put my car in park....I came in and A was there waiting for me and he came up smiling and I just shook my head and later he told me I looked like i was about to cry....and low and behold she calls me to the other window and tells me that i passed and to get my picture taken....I am now a driver!!! I didn't feel like I was going to have a good start with this lady when she told me to take the eye test and i read the line she asked and she told me to continue when there was no more letters in that line....and i told her this and we had a good two minute exchange over there being no more letters....so even though it was stressful its done and i feel 100x better...haha I just was sitting there thinking this is not going well....
What else.....I have applied for a job through my school that i actually got asked to apply for....I am hoping to hear back...because i think this would look great for a job later on...and it sound like something I would be good at and enjoy doing....I also received a scholarship....so yay that helps...I really did not expect to get one this semester...but that was a pleasant surprise....
On some not so pleasant news....I hung out with one of my best friends and i was talking to him and he confided something in me...and as soon as he said it I knew I had to act happy for him...he is following what he wants to do...and he is doing whats best for him...and ultimately thats what matter....even though I am not sure he is doing it at the right time or for the right reason...but as soon as he said it he was like I didn't want to tell you I can already see in your eyes that you are saying don't leave me....and he kind of right...I dont know....things here kind of suck....I am really down to about 2 people here that I feel comfortable with....me and who I thought were my best friend kind of are having a struggle but working through it....and then he is moving....and well the last one is still the best.... and then my other friend is only here for the summer but I do love talking to her....But....I kind of am starting to feel like all people are the same....they bullshit you are first...prattle on that they will be there....get what they want...and then move on.....I guess the whole thing is making me go back to the cold person I use to be...I have kind of made up my mind on people....there is really only 2 people in my life that have broken that mold....hahaha and they couldn't be more different but they both should know they are the best and how much i appreciate them....yes this is a shoutout to someone on here....
I think that is really it....my throat is kinda hurting....and this is probably the first night in a while that I will sleep...I finally feel calm...hahaha and I passed
Alright so you can see what i look like in my gallery i tried it as and ID and i hate that picture of me like expanded so yeah....I'm stuck looking like that since plastic surgery and needles scare the life out of me. I use this account mainly for writing I have posted a couple pics and stuff but...I have no artistic ability other then writing and even there i feel a little shakey. Since i have joined here i have been feeling a little better about it seeing all the kind comments and the people that have added me. |
I write the best when I am upset and that is really a regular attitude. There is about two things that keep me upset enough to pull out a good sad story. Most of the conversations in my stories are based of conversations i have had with a few of the people i know. That is kind of sad if you read Between Bonds and see how Itachi treats Yumi...Anyway the way i look at that situation is..."At least it pulled out a good story.
For the people that visit my page regularly yes this is updated. I hate keeping things the same for long periods of time. People who know me for real know this is true. I am on my third backpack of the year. I try to dye my hair at least once a year...The worst was dying it black because i really did look like Orochimau.
I may not look like the happiest person or even come across as it but here is the reality of it all. Life is hard, I haven't always found myself in the best situations but i am not a depressed person. I have good friends that i know are always going to be there for me and such so i can be happy knowing that. If anyone want me to add them as a friend on here I would gladly be willing to do that. If anyone has questions feel free to ask me.
I really hope everyone who comes here enjoys my writing. I really love when people leave me a comment so please drop me a line.
Current Residence: USA
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Large (the bigger the comfier)
Print preference: none
Favourite genre of music: pop
Favourite photographer: ummm again one of my friends
Favourite style of art: umm like the manga form
MP3 player of choice: ipod nano
Shell of choice: conch
Wallpaper of choice: Anything Orochimaru
Favourite cartoon character: Orochimaru
Personal Quote: The cure for death itself. The answer is immortality. By creating a legacy,
|I have interest in one of the jackets...Umm I suck it drawing so if you want something done for you it would have to be writing or photography...check out my gallery and see what i am capable of...so those to subjects more then likely unless it was simple and i will give llama badges...also points from this might go towards my group thanks a bunch|