What is Behind the Truth

I promise I will smile
I will tell you that I support you
I will let you know that I am so happy for you
While I bite my tongue
While I internally scream don’t go!


I promise that I will tell you I am doing great
I will keep it together
I will show you how great things are
While my eyes begin to burn
While I pull down my sleeves to hide the bruises


I promise to always be there for you
I will answer my phone at all hours
Always come running when something calls
While I handle everything alone
While is suffer without your knowledge


I promise you that I am not going anywhere
I will be your safety
Always here when you need me the most
While I am clutching the razor in a shaking fist
While I wait for you to look away just long enough


I promise you that things are going just great
I will be ok
I will not crack
While my throat tightens making it hard to breath
While the tears stain my cheeks


I promise you that I will be good
You will never know the horrible things I do
You will never have to comfort me
While I pick up the pieces
While I try to put tragedy behind me


I promise you that I will never falter in confidence
That I will only think highly
That I will never believe the lies people tell me
While I am skipping meals
While I being more negative about myself than anyone else


I promise you that I will never leave you
I will be a constant in your life
I will never turn my back on you
While I begin to pull away from you
While I begin to resent the way you treat me


I promise to always be honest with you
I will always tell you where you stand
You will never have to second guess how I feel
While I hide how you have hurt me
While I no longer have any truths I want to tell you


I honestly promise that I will lie to you