Sta.sh
Why is it every time I close my eyes I have a familiar nightmare...you are the one to haunt me. I can feel your hand close around my shoulder and your nails dig in. The worst part is this terror couldn't just stay in my dreams...You had to bring yourself back into my reality. Your possessiveness is overwhelming to me. You just can't let me go. Something about you needs to hold on to me.
People look at you and think you stand so independently, they fail to notice me in the background. When the day is done I know where you'll come running. I know who you'll take your anger out on when you have your worst days. I also know the girl who will take you in her arms and whisper comforts to you. I've always been here, always been the one to wear your mark. I even cover for you when my friends ask where the purple marks came from. I've told you time and again I am here for you, take all your anger out on me. I have no line for you to cross, I could never be through with you. I know in the end you'll hurt me, and discard me. I know all of this and have accepted it.
I really am okay with the fact you've turned me into a doll but once you've thrown me away please just leave me there. Please don't come searching for your broken toy with the cracked smile. Once we're done you can't make me relive the past. I could take so much back then, but you can't bring it all back. You said you were done with me, you had moved on. I gave a sigh of relief so please leave me be.
You ripped my heart out and hold it in your hand! How could that not be enough for you!?
Let me sum up the damage you've done so maybe you can see what destruction you bring. You left me with a blind eye, I failed to notice what someone like you was doing to me. You left a hole in my chest where my heart once was, I put all my trust in you, and you showed me what a foolish choice that was. You lastly left me with scars ones you yourself caused and ones I self inflicted, it was all in an attempt to get over you.
I needed to get over you, I needed to move on! I was doing so much better! You had to come back in and open old wounds. Now I'm just as broken as I was before!
......I look down at my phone, my screens lit up showing your name...Something in me won't let me ignore you, your not so silent pleas for my help. I just can't get you completely out of my life...You hold onto me with guilt. So I have one question for you, are you happy now?
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